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Day 4 – Something I need to forgive someone else for

I need to really forgive and let go of my resentment for my sperm donor aka my father. In 2009 I wrote him a Dear Daddy letter, it is posted on the blogger site. Now if you read it, know I am not as angry as I was then.

I really want to truly forgive him in my heart and let it go! I do. Recently, playing on FB and bored one day, I decided to see if he was on there. You know FB is the devil, right? And sure enough, I looked at the page looked at the pictures and had a panic attack. One he was still alive and the little information I had on him was correct. I compared the picture I had and the ones posted on FB and I stared at them for a long time. I am always saying I am a great researcher and at that moment I was like I am really too good for my own good. I sent my sister the pictures for comparison hoping I was tripping. Guess what? It is him. Sighing.

I want to forgive him for not caring enough for his own child. I thought I had done so when I wrote that letter as a 40-year-old. However, there will always be that tinge of wanting to know how a man can have a child and not once acknowledge them or live life knowing they have a child and do absolutely nothing. Shouldn’t you have a conscious awareness of your blood and want to ensure them the best in life?

I do know forgiving him is not for him, but for me. I am sincerely working on it.

 

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4 thoughts on “Day 4 – Something I need to forgive someone else for

  1. That was really deep. I feel for you on this one. I think it’s the same for the children of mothers who pinned their child on another man knowing it’s not his. What a cruel act that is too.

      • I can imagine and empathize. My mother hid my father from me for the first 5 years of my life and I thought my stepfather was my dad. Imagine my shock when my biological father not only shows up at our house, but with one of my siblings; his child from his then wife in tow! Parents can be so very cruel

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